If I knew them then, how I know them now...

Looking at baby pictures of my kids always stirs my heart a little. I look at their sweet faces with a mother's love, and try to remember what it was like holding them when they were so small. Sometimes I even get a little homesick wishing they were still fresh and new. Does part of me want them to stay sweet and tiny forever? Well of course! Just look at those precious faces! But more than that, I want to love them then, like I love them now. I want so badly to reach into these old pictures and kiss their little faces with the love that I have for them now. Because even though my love for these 3 babies began the second I saw that tiny beating flicker on the ultrasound monitor, it gets deeper all the time.

You see, back then I was just getting to know them. I wondered what their personalities would be like, how they would act, and how they would look as they got older. I anxiously awaited each milestone, excited to see them progress. I wondered if Savannah would ever outgrow her crying/colic stage, and if Benjamin would keep all that crazy black hair. And even though it's only been a few short years since Savannah and Benjamin were born, and Jacob was just born yesterday, I feel like I know them now. I know so much about who they are and catch little glimpses into what they will be like when they are older. And even though the thought of having 3 teenagers living in my house someday is a little unnerving, I am very hopeful. And thankful.